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i fell in love with hope

i fell in love with hope

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  • Create Date：2022-12-26 08:53:19
  • Update Date：2025-09-06
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  • Author：Lancali .
  • ISBN：B0B7QZBQQH
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Summary

Against the unforgiving landscape of a hospital， I fell in love with a mischievous， sun-eyed boy who became my only joy in that desolate place。 That’s what made it all the more soul-crushing when he committed suicide in front of me。

Since then， I've sworn never to love anyone again。 With three exceptions: My friends， Sony， Neo， and Coeur， a little gang of rebellious， dying kids。 Sony leads the charge with the air of freedom and only one lung to breathe it。 Neo， a bad-tempered and wheel-chaired writer， keeps track of our great deeds from stealing to terrorizing our nurse。 Coeur is the beautiful boy， the muscle， the gentle giant with a failing heart。

Before death inevitably knocks down our doors， my thieves and I have one last heist planned。 A great escape that will take us far from abusive parents， crippling loss， and the realities of our diseases。 So what happens when someone else walks through the door？ What happens when a girl joins our party and renders me speechless with her mischievous smile？ What happens when she has suns in her eyes， and as terrified as I am to lose again， I start to fall？

Trigger warnings found in foreword

Written By Lancali

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Reviews

Isabella ，

this is genuinely one of my favourite books that i have read。 i felt myself smiling for the characters， and i felt their pain as well。 that is a good skill for an author。 i’m excited to read the authors next book。 some people are giving this book a low rating， but it is important to consider that this is the authors first book， and （i think？） it’s self published。 i believe this book was written well， being the authors first book。

Floor Grommle ，

Poetic， beautiful。 I fell in love with its characters。 A rather tragic story told in a matter of fact way， that subtly yet thoroughly emphasises the good parts of being alive。

Viltė Čerkesaitė ，

I didn’t read all of the book， but I hope I will be back to continue it， for now this book don’t really stick out to me

Riley Isakso ，

I first saw this book on tiktok， then i told myself "I need to read this"。 I am currently following Lancali on tiktok and i have heard that her old best friend， who has passed away was the one who who gave her the idea to write a book about people like them in the hospital。 I finished this book in 3 days， and from the 2 day to well。。。 today i have been crying all the time。 This was such a sad book and defiantly my favorite。 I first saw this book on tiktok， then i told myself "I need to read this"。 I am currently following Lancali on tiktok and i have heard that her old best friend， who has passed away was the one who who gave her the idea to write a book about people like them in the hospital。 I finished this book in 3 days， and from the 2 day to well。。。 today i have been crying all the time。 This was such a sad book and defiantly my favorite。 。。。more

Tanishka ，

This book made me sob so much and this is now on the top in the list of my recommendations。

Bon-z-a ，

I would've loved to give this book five stars， but it just doesn't live up to the hype。 There's a lot to unpack as to why I Fell In Love With Hope is not a good book。 I am a chronically ill person myself。 I know what it is like to be stuck in bed all day， barely able to function while the rest of society moves on。 I know what it's like to feel excruciating pain and fatigue that drains you。 I know what it's like when your chronic illness is slowly chipping away at your hobbies and everything you I would've loved to give this book five stars， but it just doesn't live up to the hype。 There's a lot to unpack as to why I Fell In Love With Hope is not a good book。 I am a chronically ill person myself。 I know what it is like to be stuck in bed all day， barely able to function while the rest of society moves on。 I know what it's like to feel excruciating pain and fatigue that drains you。 I know what it's like when your chronic illness is slowly chipping away at your hobbies and everything you enjoy。 But this book did not resonate with me。 It made me feel worse about myself and it was very painful to read。 And I don't mean painful in a beautiful and meaningful way。 No， I mean in it a way that I wanted to break down， collapse， and cry because of how harmful the writing felt。 The trigger warning are not to be glossed over。 I suppose this is my own fault for not taking enough caution， but I was very curious as to see what everyone was raving on and on about。 And it was not worth it。 The chronic illness is used almost as a writing tool， something to edge the non-existent plot on。 Oh and the writing。 The writing was awful。 As many others have said， it felt like it was meant to be quotable。 It was trying it's hardest at being meaningful and lyrical， but it ended up coming off as flat。 This is mainly because when every single line is a metaphor， the metaphors cancel each other out。 There is no longer any meaning behind the metaphors when they are in every。 single。 sentence。 Same thing happens with the symbolism。 Ends up just being confusing。Instead of the book being deep， it feels surface level because of how deep it is。 If that makes sense。 。。。more

Destiny ，

wow。 i am speechless。 i hung onto every word。 i have no clue what i just read and i am completely changed by it。 so emotionally heavy in the best way。 wow。 i have no idea what to say。 this book took me by surprise。 never cried so much while reading a book。 the writing… wow！

Jess ，

i have never dropped a book so fast

Sophia Peall ，

Slow to begin with， and took a lot of effort to continue in some places。 However， half-way through the plot starts to add up， the characters become complex and interesting。 Highly intelligent ending and a great read if you can be patient with the beginning。 Overall a beautifully worded book with room for crying。

cloroxbleach ，

could have been half as long if it wasn’t trying to be so ~deep~

Ahmed ，

This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers。 To view it， click here。 i didnt finish it yet but i just had a little questionthis is my first english book so I didn't really understand everything sentence bec。 english is not my first or mother language any way I didn't get why sam blamed hikari for the escape didn't they actually was planning to escape before the appearance to hikari in the story he should blamed his self or at least sony or neo or c why did he blamed hikari and I didn't also get how hikari easily decided to escape with them when she was just arriv i didnt finish it yet but i just had a little questionthis is my first english book so I didn't really understand everything sentence bec。 english is not my first or mother language any way I didn't get why sam blamed hikari for the escape didn't they actually was planning to escape before the appearance to hikari in the story he should blamed his self or at least sony or neo or c why did he blamed hikari and I didn't also get how hikari easily decided to escape with them when she was just arrived to the hospital i hope i got an explanation for this i am not in "hope" chapter and i really like the story and the characters especially bec。 i have heart disease like c and iscolosis Like neo and going to have braces surgery in a few months 。。。more

Carmela Clorina ，

Kind of confusing for me， but still liked it。 Sad book。

Essence Heckstall ，

I got about 200 pages into the book and couldn’t keep reading。 Unfortunately I was not able to get into this book。 It was not what I was expecting at all and was confusing and difficult to keep reading。

Riley Isakson ，

I cried so much， and the end caught me of guard a bit。 But over all it was a great book

Britney ，

I never thought I would give another book five stars but here I am

Ash ，

Arguably the most I’ve cried this whole year。

Aliyah Payne ，

It was very very good and description but some of the parts I was confused on who was narrating it like the very beginning was very confusing to ME， but it might not be confusing for other people it was just confusing for me。 But other wise it was really good

Magdalena ，

Cliche on cliche on cliche

Diana Porumb ，

There were so many moments while reading this book that I wanted to take the words I was reading and show them to the world。 Its the first book in a while that I couldnt put down

nadja ，

plot was ok， i didnt enjoy it because her writing style was too wattpad-y for me 😭😭 plus it was super slow at times and i rlly rlly wanted to dnf this but i waited so long so i just finished it 💀

Sereen Dannon ，

I'm wrecked。 I'm wrecked。 。。。more

Francesca ，

3。5⭐️

preru （ᵔᴥᵔ） ，

will update later :）

Derin K ，

This novel more or less met my expectations， but it didn’t blow me away。 Not until the last chapter， at least—that definitely did blow me away with how neatly it tied the story together and how beautifully it did so。If you can get past the inability to use the correct homophones or the right instance of “me/I” throughout the story， it definitely feels like it was written by someone who has experience doing this。 It’s quotable， meaning that the author writes in such a metaphorical prose that it w This novel more or less met my expectations， but it didn’t blow me away。 Not until the last chapter， at least—that definitely did blow me away with how neatly it tied the story together and how beautifully it did so。If you can get past the inability to use the correct homophones or the right instance of “me/I” throughout the story， it definitely feels like it was written by someone who has experience doing this。 It’s quotable， meaning that the author writes in such a metaphorical prose that it was tough for me to fully lose myself in this story。 I saw the characters as abstract caricatures rather than as people I should care about。 They were completely defined by their diseases and mental illnesses， and I honestly couldn’t tell what physical or mental battles they were fighting throughout because of the way they were shared on the page （I get that this was intentional， to an extent， but it was confusing）。 And for that reason， I couldn’t believe the relationships， and I couldn’t feel the emotions I knew I was supposed to feel every time something bad happened—which was a lot。 You know how sometimes there are books that break you in the best way？ This book felt like it was trying so hard to be sad that it made me despair without actually getting under my skin。 Overall， though， I think the writing was beautiful。 Also， the cover is gorgeous and I’m going to love putting this on my shelf。 。。。more

Ricky Malhotra ，

Great story， so-so writing。 Pacing is a slow， the book is made up of 80% metaphors and 20% a vague semblance of a plot。 But the book really shines in the main characters， just not it’s nameless actual main character。 The squad in this book is truly the best， and I’ll miss each of them dearly。 I， however， did not like the reveal at the end for the mc。

Soma ，

oh。my。god。 I don’t think I can fully gather words to describe how this book as formed a spot in my heart。 There's traged that will make your jawdrop and ball your eyes out， there's romance， oh my fuck the romance， there's mystery， there's humor， and lots of Shakespeare references。Let me begin with the romance， COEUR AND NEO！！！！！！！， my love for these two is insane， I smiled and I cried for them throughout the way。 “si dieu me laisse， on sera ensemble pour toujours”， I had to google translate this oh。my。god。 I don’t think I can fully gather words to describe how this book as formed a spot in my heart。 There's traged that will make your jawdrop and ball your eyes out， there's romance， oh my fuck the romance， there's mystery， there's humor， and lots of Shakespeare references。Let me begin with the romance， COEUR AND NEO！！！！！！！， my love for these two is insane， I smiled and I cried for them throughout the way。 “si dieu me laisse， on sera ensemble pour toujours”， I had to google translate this ， and once I did and I reached the end of the book my heart ached in adoration， those two are truly soulmates。This book really allows you to take a inside look， as someone whom hasn’t suffered medically， into the perspective of those who do， it offers a glance at how life is perceived， through love and friendship， and ways in which death is attempted to be cheated on。 Despite never truly understanding the characters fully with what they went through， I can honestly say when reading into their lives there was aspects where I connected with each and every one of them。I have never tabbed a book as much as I did with this one， each chapter ， each page caught a hold of my heart。 Sadness and suffering and hope was honestly written in such a devastatingly beautiful way。 I will cherish this book forever。 。。。more

mel ，

I started reading this book 5 months ago and I’m a fast reader but it took me forever to finish。 It wasn’t bad， the writing was really beautiful， but elaborate metaphors sprinkled through every page got confusing and hard to read sometimes。 I did sob several times though so i recommend it

Jessica Ravikumar ，

This made me cry multiple times， it gave me a new outlook on Death， Disease， Time and Pain。 I write this with ugly tear stains down my cheek but I haven’t been this much in my feels for a long time。

Sümeyye ，

w o wand a note: i didn't cry ONCE。 I'm the strongest soldier on earth。 w o wand a note: i didn't cry ONCE。 I'm the strongest soldier on earth。 。。。more

Grace ，

Heartbreakingly beautiful。 Each sentence and page a poem made to make you laugh， cry， too feel and my god it did。

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